Just finished watching The Biggest Loser for tonight, second to last episode in this, the 9th season of the show. My cheeks are tear stained and my eyes are pink from the moisture. If you read this blog, you know I went through the season 10 casting process, but ultimately didn't get selected. I was consumed with the process because I wanted it SO BAD. I mean, to leave life for a while and be on this amazing show and show people that they, too, can do it? Awesome.
But I realized I can do it here too. Using this simple blog to air my thoughts, struggles and triumphs is how I choose to continue hoping someone will hear- will SEE that they aren't alone in a struggle of trying to lose weight.
The more I write this blog and see other weight loss bloggers, there are days that I go “still, no one understands what's it like to be my size.” As Michael said on The Biggest Loser tonight, when he started the journey, he was “twice the weight of an overweight person.” Last week he had a tantrum in the gym over being humiliated about having lost SO MUCH weight and then having to shop at a big and tall shop for his makeover outfit. I cried with him and wanted to reach through the screen and tell him I knew EXACTLY how he felt.
Don't get me wrong- I will be the first cheerleader in ANYONE'S journey to lose 2 pounds or 200 pounds. There are just few people like me out there who have such a big mountain to climb as me (and Michael, or Shay from season 8) have to go.
Tonight, we saw the final 4 contestants run a MARATHON. Seriously. So think of Michael, at 300 or so pounds, run a marathon. And he did it in like 6 hours, 22 minutes (or thereabouts). Not rapid fast, I know, but he did it. Suddenly, instead of looking at the distance I have to go in this journey, I can see that in about 6 months of his training, he could get to a point to do that. So for me, realistically in a year-16 months I could get to a place to complete a marathon? Bonkers.
So this is the part where I start being honest. I've been posting my weight losses, but haven't really ever defined my weight, my goals, how far I am in this long marathon of a journey (bad pun). I don't want to splash my weight all over the place, but if you really want to know, feel free to ask in private. For now, I'll give you these numbers and if you're even slightly mathematically-inclined, you can figure it out. I just want to be honest about where I'm at and how far I need to go. No more vague references to my big hurdles to jump. This is what they are:
- Starting weight loss goal: Lose 255 pounds
- Loss so far: 58 pounds
- Pounds left to go until my mind's “ideal” weight (which will put me at about a misses 14): 197
- This means I'm 22.7% to goal
So, there are my stats. I haven't posted this much detail on here before, but moving forward, this is changing. Until I calculated it out just now, I didn't even realize I was so far into my journey because I was too busy looking at the number left to lose. Such a simple thing can shift perspective so much.
I'm energized, pumped up, and super motivated. I'm hoping to make even more major progress with my Get Emmie Skinny Challenge. I hope you enjoy following the journey.