I got asked this question today and I know many people must think it, but are too shy to ask.
Why weight loss now? What's different this time?
If you're going through a weight loss journey right now, have you asked yourself this? Can you answer it concisely? If not, there may be a problem.
I've tried to lose weight my whole life. I literally can't remember back to a time where I wasn't trying to lose weight. Grow up fat, and it's ingrained in your head that you're trying to lose weight- even if you aren't really trying. When I had my week of shame a while back, in my head, I was telling myself I was still on a weight loss journey.
I really had to think about how to explain to people why this time is different. Why, out of all the hundreds of other times I've attempted to lose weight, this time will work. I'll be honest. Thinking about this make me a freakin' mess. Am I setting myself up to fail? Am I going to disappoint people if I don't end up making my goal this time? Am I doomed to live like this forever?
To hell with it. If I disappoint people, I can guarantee them that I've disappointed myself even more. Their shame will have nothing on mine. Not that I think I will fail.
So here's my why:
My mom died at age 50 from Parksinson's Disease. She spent the last years of her life unable to walk. At my heaviest weight, I never felt like walking. How can someone in their mid-twenties feel so much like someone who should be confined to a nursing home? I sincerely felt that way most days. As I approach my 30th year in this life, I have to own up to myself that only I can make the change. Only I can do this for myself. No one can save me from myself.
In short, this is my life to lose and I'm willing to fight like hell for it.
I'm doing it. I'm doing it now. This time will work, because my life is WORTH living. The life I have now is void of experiences I've put off my entire life. Check out my 101 in 1001 list I posted yesterday. The list is FULL of experiences that are dependent upon my weight loss and increased confidence. I refuse to hold my husband back from doing fun things because of my size. I refuse to feel like an outcast in society. I refuse to throw in the towel.
There you go. My reasons.
What are yours? Why is this time different?