An Important Message

I’m back in the land of reality, rested and relaxed from my cruise. Hubs and I went on a 5 nighter from Fort Lauderdale to Key West and Cozumel. We were supposed to go from Cozumel to the Bahamas, but Hurricane Earl made it too dangerous to go, so we spent the last 2 days at (rough) sea. Despite this hiccup, we had so much fun. I haven’t been truly disconnected from my Blackberry, email, etc for years, and it was great. Hubs thought I’d have a nervous tick after 1 day without access to technology, but I proved him wrong :)

First night on the boat

Before the trip, I know I talked about how I was going to try to be active and do things out of the box from what Fat Emmie would have done. Fat Emmie wouldn’t have even gone on the cruise. She would have stayed at home and not even entertained the idea of going on a boat with small bathrooms, unfamiliar situations, lots of walking, and being in a bathing suit.

In Key West- the pirate sure isn't Johnny Depp...

The first stop was Key West, which was beautiful, but wicked hot! We walked around part of the island and did what I had been looking forward to the entire trip: something completely adventure-seeking and out of my old comfort zone:

Jet Skiing

We went jet skiing! We were out for about an hour and a half with a group of about 6 other people. We sped around the entire island- starting on the Gulf side, then crossing under the bridge that is the only entry to Key West, then into the Atlantic, past the southernmost point in the US, then back where the Atlantic and Gulf meet, around our cruise ship and back to the dock. It was AMAZING. The feeling of whizzing through the ocean at 40+ mph in the sun and sea felt incredible. We saw dolphins and in the Atlantic had to jump a lot of waves! I couldn’t believe that me of all people was attempting this, and enjoying it so much.

My perspective from the jet ski

Have you ever had a moment of sheer happiness and peace? I’ve had them probably 2 times, and this was #3. Where you just ARE in the moment without any cares in the world, worries about what is to come, all personal hangups forgotten. Bliss.

This would not have happened 12 weeks ago, when I was losing weight but not working on my fitness. I wouldn’t have believed that my body could handle this activity, and in all actuality, it probably couldn’t have. I would have been over the weight limit of the jet skis 12 weeks ago. I wouldn’t have been able to fit in the life jacket for sure- it was still quite tight, but at least it buckled! I wouldn’t have been in a bathing suit around others without shame.

I know you guys might think I’m some raving psychotically happy person just back from vacation bliss. I don’t care. I want to tell you something important:

Are you waiting to take action to improve your life? If you’re working on improving your health, relationships, whatever, that’s awesome. But I know that there are people reading this that still haven’t made a leap. You’re wondering if you’re strong enough mentally to undergo a change that will be extremely challenging and difficult. You can think of 100 ways that it will go wrong, which leads to inaction. You stick with your status quo. I have been there more times than I can count. Believe me, this whole long process I’m undergoing can be hard. Not fun. Frustrating.

But you know what? The payoff is SO. DAMN. WORTH. IT. This jet ski experience might not sound like much, but for this Emmie in this body doing this stuff and having so much fun is PROOF. Proof that I’m doing it. Proof that it works. Proof that a little pain and frustration is a very small price to pay for being able to start living. You don’t have to wait until you’re at your ultimate goal to enjoy the changes. I’m still VERY FAR away from any kind of weight goal, but as far as fitness and being active and able to do functional, everyday activities? I’m doing it. And doing it well. One of the other jet skiing ladies asked if I did this often, because I looked so natural. I’ve never jet skied, and have only been on a speed boat once. Definitley not natural, but my body was able to adapt to it. The next day, a couple who jet skied asked us how sore we were from it. Sore? What were they talking about? I didn’t have any soreness or pain? Oh yeah, that’s because I’M FIT, BITCHES! (Not that they’re bitches, they were awesome. But you know what I mean.)

In the end, only you can decide to make a change for the better. I just want to tell you how amazing it can feel. I can only hope that those of you who are struggling right now to take the lead and make changes in your life to improve it can experience this kind of joy I did on this jet ski. I don’t have all the answers or any secrets to share. I make mistakes and hit bumps in the road. But when you can have a moment to soar and truly appreciate success, the freedom is indescribable.

I’ll share more in coming days about the rest of the trip. I was excited to share this with you, because you give me the support I need to push myself on the hard days.

  • Mariams218

    Great post! Proud of you for taking that leap and feeling confident. and PS, I LOVE that blue dress and white sweater combo!! :)

  • msfitmint

    Sorry, that comment from above was me, MsFitmint. lol

  • Witnilove

    5 photos down… HOTTIE ALERT! Gosh your blue (maxi?) dress is too cute and that swimsuit is totally flattering! Thanks for the words of wisdom too… it’s too true.

    • skinnyemmie

      thanks! The swimsuit was from Lands End and the maxi dress was from Target- got it last year.

  • Fluffy girl

    Sounds awesome! I’m glad you had a moment, you will always remember it and look back and say, damn that was awesome. Your living the life! And yes, you are FIT :) Keep it up Emmie!!!

  • Retta

    How cool and inspiring! I use the excuse that I will do X, Y & Z when I lose more weight all the time and I need to just stop that right now. I’m glad you had a great time!

  • Emily (Big Life, Little Blog)

    What an amazing experience! You’ve pumped me up to accomplish my own goal of water skiing again! (Something I haven’t done since I was 12.) I have 8 months until next summer…I WILL do it!

    Thanks for sharing this and inspiring us all!

    • skinnyemmie

      ooh, water skiing- I’ve never done that. Maybe next summer!

  • Anonymous

    I’m so happy for you. I’ve wasted so long just waiting for something to happen, not sure how it was going to happen because I wasn’t doesn’t anything about it. This year I’ve decide I’m taking charge of my life and living for me, no one else. This post was a great reminder. Sounds like it was a blast. I can’t wait to hear the rest of it!

  • Big Girl Bombshell

    YOU are SO right ON! I haven’t done the jet ski thing but its that amazing moment when we do something we have told ourselves for so long we couldn’t do because of our weight. The moment I got back on a bicycle last month, after more than 15 years of the No, I’m fat I can’t…It isn’t the vacation HIGH…it is truly a feeling of accomplishment that Emmie is sharing.


    • skinnyemmie

      Thank you Jules! I would love to get back on a bicycle sometime- something to look forward to!

  • Lauralynne

    there are so many challenging moments, hours, days during this battle – but you’re SO right: The moments like you had on the jet ski, the huge changes we start to see as we go on this journey – they make that fight worth it – the challenges seem small compared to the victories. Now to just find a way to let the victories buoy us through the hard parts!

  • Schelinski1020

    I am impressed and inspired/motivated to get myself moving! I’ve always wanted to jet ski too! You look great and was a great accomplishment! Now, imagine what the next 12 months will bring!

    • skinnyemmie

      Thinking about the next 12 months makes me so excited, it’s ridiculous. :)

  • Denise

    That is fantastic in a thousand ways. Congratulations on having enough self-esteem to wear a bathing suit in public, to go on a cruise, to go a on a jet ski, to document the whole process on FILM. Like, with pictures and stuff!

    You look incredible, by the way. So much different than you did twelve weeks ago. You radiate. I’m so happy for you.

    • skinnyemmie

      thank you Denise :)

  • Anonymous

    Thanks for this post. I am going to do a nursing assistant program and I’ve been wondering if perhaps I was too fat to do it, but this post was really encouraging to me and I think I’ll do it anyhow. Why wait until I’m thin to live my life? :D

    • skinnyemmie

      Exactly- don’t wait to start living. Do it now!

  • Savannah

    Hi Emmie,

    I’m new to your blog, and was led here by a few of my FB friends who ‘liked’ your page on FB. I am touched by your blog, and most important by your attitude to get healthy without a huge focus on the superficial. I work in the field of public health, and I think you’ve got a handle on the best possible mindset on successfully losing weight. You should be very proud of yourself.

    Reading this entry touched me incredibly, your joy leapt off the page, and I could relate to it. A little more than a year ago I made huge strides in my life, except it wasn’t with weight loss, but with an anxiety disorder I struggled with. I finally found a way out of that hell (a good therapist), and I had moments just like the ones you experienced where I lived in the moment, really embraced life, and was so happy I felt like my heart would burst.

    Anyway, thank you for sharing your journey with us. I look forward to reading your blog from now on.

    Oh! I live in DC, but I grew up in Lexington, KY. =) So nice to see a blogger from my hometown.

    • skinnyemmie

      Thanks for dropping by, and thanks for your kind words!!

  • Birgitta

    Please print this post, and hang it in the room where you run the highest risk of feeling low. Nothing can beats this. Sheer happiness and peace!!!! This is the actual goal (not the losing of the weight)


    Was very emotional reading your post. And very happy for you that your holiday was all you expected it to be (and it bit relieved it was not a disappointment). Thank you for sharing. Again.

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  • D…

    What an awesome, inspiring post, you are right, waiting until i lose 50kgs/fit into a size 16/whatever the mark is no way to live. I am so pleased you had fun and got so much out of the experience, I love the photos and am definitely going to refer to this post in my blog :-)

  • Lisa Eirene

    I’ve been on one cruise before and it was really fun! Unfortunately I was like 17 so I couldn’t fully enjoy it. I’d love to go on another and relax by the pool with an umbrella drink. :)

  • Jennifer

    This is a wonderful post!! It is so amazing to see how not just your body changes, but also how your mind set changes, when you try to lead a healthier life, isn’t it? I just ran an 8k this weekend, something I NEVER would have contemplated at my heaviest. But now, even though I’m not totally to my goal yet, it still feels amazing to do something I never would’ve dreamed of doing when I was 275+. Good job, girl!!

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