It’s Reversible

I know I talk about making choices all the time, but it’s key in my current mindset, so I’m talking about them some more. You have been warned!

I get frustrated with my body, with the weight, with my overall girth. I get frustrated with all the events that have led me to this point where it is a daily struggle to make the correct choice after choice after choice. Some days, the choices come easy. I feel great, energized, and deciding between sleeping in and going to workout is a no-brainer. But days like today, I have to struggle to make the right choice.

I just watched last night’s episode of The Biggest Loser (the one I would have been on).  I have lots to say about the first couple of episodes, but I’ll leave that for another day. Something that struck me though, that pertained to the funk I’ve been in today, is something one of the contestants asked the staff doctor. The show doctor was giving her some really bad news about the current condition of her health. Her smoking and obesity contributed heavily to a “health age” that was 2x her actual age. She was distraught, and asked:

Is it reversible?

“YES! YES! YES,” the doctor proclaimed. “It’s reversible but you have to work your ass off to make it so.”

*Lightbulb moment for Emmie*

I can moan all I want about how hard it is or how I’m so tired and just want a break. But I’m working on reversing this damage my body has. No matter what the cause of it, I need to reverse it. The body I had will not lead me anywhere but to an early grave. It will not lead me anywhere but depressed. Isolated. Sedentary.  I don’t want to can’t go back there.

Guess it’s a good thing I got up at 5:30 am and did this then:

Today's weight training program. (Did a 5 minute warmup on the ARC trainer)

For cone jumps, I just jump over the line on the basketball court. I can't get enough "air" for the cone... yet :)

The sandbag and the step

And the rest of the gear for stability ball flys, stiff legged deadlift-row compound, medicine ball chops and lateral leg raises.

Tomorrow I’m scheduled for medium intensity cardio. I have a feeling I’m not going to want to get up to do it, but I’m going to keep reminding myself that getting up is the only way I can reverse the damage I have done to my body. There are so few things in this life you can change or take back, and I’m going to fight like hell to succeed at this one.

  • Danielle

    LOVE it. It is reversable and seeing you at 5:30 on twitter encourages me to get out of bed and get moving as well.

  • BAH

    YOU can do it Emmie!!!! Congrats for getting up this morning and hitting up your workout!!

  • Big Girl Bombshell

    Yes! All of it is reversible!~

  • Lauralynne

    The only thing you can’t reverse is time – but you can live a fuller life from this day forward…

    I can’t tell you how many times someone tells me they’ve lost x pounds in y months and think to myself “if I started then, I could have lost x pounds by now too!” Now I try not to let time go by without moving forward in my journey. it’s not easy. But I remember time.

  • MsGigglepuss

    Yes, you can do it! Losing the weight and regaining your health isn’t always fun, but it is so worth it. Just keep on getting up and reversing those actions that got you to where you were before. You definitely inspire me!

  • Stephnms

    Yes, it is reversible! You can do it, Emmie! Hang in there! *Hugs*

  • CortneyM

    Emily, I wrote a LONG comment in response to this last night, but my stupid phone wouldn’t let me post it. So here’s what I remember of it: Basically, I was surprised to read this last night because I had literally just finished writing in my journal about the same thing. Except I had a much different attitude. I wrote that I felt the damage I’d done to my body was irreversible. Now of course I know this isn’t 100 percent true, but it feels like SO much work would be required to fix it, it’s too overwhelming to even try. Then I read your blog and saw the positive way you are choosing to look at your situation; I wish I had an ounce of your attitude and determination. I am awed by you every time I read your blog! You are doing an amazing job.

  • Lisa Eirene

    YES it’s reversible!! I sometimes wonder what kind of damage I did to my body weighing 250 for so long. But my body seems much happier now that I’m 100 pounds lighter. I get sick less often. My back and feet don’t hurt anymore. My blood pressure has been consistently awesome for years now!

  • Rhonda

    Heck yeah!!!! Isn’t it awesome that you can get your health back….and your confidence…and lots of other good things. It sucks that you can’t get it right back, but hey ~You’ll get there. You’re doing this thing, Emmie! Keep it up, girl!

  • Jennifer Alberghene

    It’s good to be scared into action and that only happens when you hold on to the knowledge that all the damage can be reversed. That was a good moment. I had a similar moment when Jillian was talking about having an emotional relationship with unhealthy food – seeing it as what it is “obesity, death, bad sex life, lack of confidence in the workplace, etc.” Loose quote I know, but that was such a great quote. Instead of constantly calculating to try and walk as close to the line but still lose weight – I want to turn my back on my old habits and focus on things that are good for me.

    You are an inspiration – keep up the great work!

  • Kendra

    Ack, what a good point! I needed to read this today. It’s not just about losing weight, it’s about reversing the damage as well. True, true, true. I really like this post.

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