All I hear from the media about obesity is how it is killing us, giving us high blood pressure, diabetes, etc. While this is the case for some, it makes me upset. Am I supposed to feel shamed for being fat? I work out 5 days a week and eat healthy- how are these good fitness deeds erased by one sweeping categorization as being morbidly obese based on my height and weight?
A lot of this goes back to still trying to find confidence in this body that I have NOW, not waiting for it to come with the body I'm working to get. I may never get to an “ideal” weight for my body, but what I will do is continue to exercise and eat well to keep myself healthy.
Even sitting at the airport a couple of weeks ago, the CNN on the TVs were blasting in surround sound at the gate about increasing rates of diabetes among the growing obese population in the US. Of course I got panicked and start to think all eyes were turning to me and my seatbelt-extender-needing-ass. This is what sparked the whole blog post of “You don't know me-” written about my insecurities when I'm out of my comfort zone. The fears of judgement – people looking at you like you're a drain on society, on the healthcare system, etc. I have been morbidly obese and unhealthy before, and will freely admit that. But right now I'm morbidly obese and healthy. Isn't that an oxymoron? Here I go talking about unicorns again!
But oh how I was surprised this morning when I saw a tweet from health at every size (HAES) blogger Fatshionista with a YouTube video attached. She also noted that Big Fat Blog posted it. These bloggers probably don't like me much because I have “skinny” in my name (even though that's not the goal here) and I'm actively trying to lose weight, but I'm linking anyway because I read them and want to give credit where due. Anyway, this is a YouTube video of US Surgeon General Dr. Regina Benjamin talking about health.
Check out the video, it's super short- 40 seconds.
Did you just see what I saw??? A UNICORN? No! It's the top public health official in the United States telling me *gasp* I can be healthy at this weight!
Can I get an “AMEN?!”
I really, honestly squealed when I saw this. As THE authority and representative for public health issues in the United States, I felt validated. I can be fit and fat.
I wanted to scream it from the rooftops: “Look! I'm not crazy! I can be fit and fat! WOO!”
So I'm sharing here with you, my friends. I'm fit and fat. Spread the word!