This is totally random, and most people will be like “huh? What happened to this blog?” but I just wanted to post this video. For some reason I've been really emotional, anxious and downright high-strung recently (even more so than usual). Throughout my life, I've had acceptance issues: with friends, strangers, coworkers, whatever. No matter what weight I was (or am), I just always worried about people thinking I'm doing a bad job. When I weigh in and only get 1 pound, I feel like people are judging me for doing a bad job the previous week (yes, I realize this is an irrational fear). If I don't hit a timeline on a work project, I feel like people are going to think I'm a bad worker (even if delays were beyond my control).
Most days, I can control these irrational feelings and even forget they're there. But for whatever reason, they're going overdrive in my head lately.
I heard this song in the car today, and the first words totally made me tear up:
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag – drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel just so paper thin – like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?
I just needed an emotional release today, and between your kind comments from my weigh-in post and this song on repeat, I got it.