This month I’m participating in #reverb10. Every day a new prompt is issued and I will write my response. The goal is to reflect on 2010 and manifest what’s next in 2011. Want to learn more? Visit www.reverb10.com.
Prompt: Beautifully different. Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different – you'll find they're what make you beautiful.
I checked the Twitter stream for #reverb10 and from what I gathered, it seems that a lot of people are having trouble writing this post. First, people have such a hard time finding the beauty in themselves daily. Second, people don't want to sound conceited or narcissistic by pointing out “beautifully different” things about themselves. I am dealing with both of these issues as I write this post, but I think it's a very thoughtful prompt and deserves proper examination every once in a while. Instead of tearing ourselves down, once in a while it's good to try to build yourself up.
Honest & Open
I'm honest about myself and my actions. Some might say I'm an oversharer, but I just like to keep things real. If I'm struggling, you'll know. If I'm feeling good, you'll know. If I'm not sure how I'm feeling, you'll know. (You get the point!) I find that being honest and not putting on a “front” for people lets me learn a lot more about myself. It also has helped me learn more about myself, my moods and how to channel my thoughts and feelings into actions. Blogging has been an outlet for sharing my personal journey, which has forced me to better identify and explain myself and my actions. Over time, this might become restrictive, especially in times of struggle. But for now, being open about my journey and experiences is helping me learn and grow.
I say persistent, you may say stubborn 🙂 I hate not finishing something, not doing the best job I can, not reaching a goal. Besides my lifelong weight loss journey, there is really only one thing I can think of in my life that I wasn't perceived as doing a good job at something. That one thing gives me regular nightmares, produces irrational anxiety and keeps me up at night. While that isn't helpful (and one reason I'm starting regular counseling tomorrow), it is a perfect example of how much I hate to fail. As I grow older, I am starting to learn to be more “level” in my pursuits – meaning I'm more accepting in the time it might take to accomplish or becoming less frustrated when the results don't happen as I want them. This extends beyond weight loss. It has to do with being a good wife, pup mom, employee and friend. Sometimes my sights get hyperfocused on one pursuit at a time, and right now, that pursuit is on weight loss and fitness. I hope in 2011 I can become more diverse in my pursuits!
After I wrote these 2 items, I asked my hubs what he thought. He said I'm smart, pretty, a good pup mom and make good meatloaf. I'll take it!