This is just a silly post to display the shift in perception versus reality. My mental patience has been tested lately, and I'm working hard to overcome the feelings of inadequacy and self-doubt. I hope someone else can relate to this 🙂
A note from young grasshopper Emmie (my past):
Hi, my name is Emmie and I'm a weight-loss ninja.
You see, I'm going to start this blog where I talk about my workouts. I'll talk about food and struggles and show my weight to the entire interwebz. I'll post awesome progress photos and it will hold me accountable.
With this blog, I'll make new friends and feel supported by people. I can use it like a journal, except it's public. Maybe this way, I won't forget to write things down.
Being a ninja means that I'm fast and swift and deadly. I will fight the fat with hard work and sheer determination.
In two years, I'll be at my goal weight. I will have become a black belt in weight loss and fitness. I'll have crazy before and after photos and will be able to do all of the things that I never could before without major anxiety. Flying without a seatbelt extender, riding on roller coasters, climbing a mountain – I will conquer it all.
A note from Emmie Miyagi (my present):
Hi, my name is Emmie and I'm a weight loss ninja.
Perhaps I'm not a black belt, and as you can tell, I might not look like a stereotypical ninja. I feel like one though. I've battled through depression, anxiety, distance, and injury. I have been tested in the ways of perseverance, overcoming laziness, and resisting cheese fries. My mental state has bent from deliriously happy to massively frustrated and ready to throw-in-the-towel. Yet I've bent without breaking. That's pretty ninja-like.
The villan of self-doubt might never go away. The goal is to outsmart it and display superior tactics to fight it off. While the body must be sharp, the mind must be sharper as the real enemy lies within.
Fight on, warrior!