Hello and welcome to another edition of #TransparentTuesday! During #TransparentTuesday, we remove the rosy filters of social media and share real life.
Not going to lie – I've had a rough couple of weeks. You know when your days are stitched together with a brain that isn't working as quickly as you need it, the words never come out right, and a series of crap seems to come your way? Some of the crap is self-induced because of your flaws, and some of it is just the universe saying to you: “here, your turn to deal with things!” A mixed bag. Don't get me wrong: there have been really high points the past couple of weeks also, but the low points seem to bankrupt those. Why can't it work the other way around where high points bankrupt all the bad things? That would be magical. #UnicornDreams
Sunday (my mom's birthday) I was having #AllTheFeels. ALL the feels. Exhausting. A friend who has only seen me recently through the social media/Facebook/blog lens started rattling off really nice things about me. She sees travel, fun outfits, raving about work – all the good stuff. The awesome – if you may.
I shared with her the flaws. Misguided trust issues, overthinking my overthinking, inability to function before 9am and/or before coffee consumption, and stubbornness – among other things.
Between all the awesome and all the flaws, we have the flawsome.
(Apparently this is a Tyra Banks term and I love it.)
Somehow we have to balance self-love and acceptance with the acknowledgement of our flaws. Acknowledging both ends of the spectrum is what makes us human. Too much hubris can lead to denial, whereas too much loathing can lead to low self-worth. And trying to erase your flaws completely is a set-up for perfection you'll never achieve. The struggle.
Left was yesterday, feeling pretty awesome at that moment (outfit post coming soon!!!) and right is today where I felt so full of flaws that I struggled to put on pants to sit in my home office and work. (Not to fear, I did put on pants.) Same person. 1 is not better than the other. Just have to learn to embrace all of it, and surround yourself with people who can accept it all.
The net outcome of the conversation? You can love a lot of things about yourself while actively admitting you have things you want to change. Sometimes it means standing up for yourself and your worth; other times it means apologizing and looking for ways to grow.
Embrace the flawsome!