I've been overly introspective lately. Not sure if it's because the end of the year is coming, or if it's because I'm starting to focus on my 30th birthday coming up in April. I was laying in bed last night, unable to doze off as so often happens with me. My brain was on a roll: It jumped from thought to congruent thought to tangent thought to parallel thought to completely unrelated thought and back again. Round and round my brain goes. It's one thing that makes me good at my job, but it's also incredibly inconvenient when trying to get to sleep.
I thought about the pie (I'm totally not upset over it now), then I thought about my mom, and her life and how I could have done more to help her. Then I think of my 5K from last Wednesday and how I had zero filter and blurted out how I had lost 88 pounds and finished 8 minutes faster than before. To complete strangers!
Then my mind thinks about strangers. How we pass them by every day and don't know their stories. I blurted out my achievements to strangers because I wanted them to know where I've come from. To show I'm not ashamed of a 50 minute 5k. Then I thought about those who don't blurt. Those who have “been there/done that” and have succeeded in their weight loss journeys already. Unless they blurt, I would never know their struggles. I can see a beautiful girl in the supermarket and be envious of her flowing hair, perfect skin and toned body. But I don't know her struggles. I don't know her lifes journey.
So I share this good reminder for all of us.
Whether we blurt the good or the bad or not, each human has endured their own struggles and sufferings. We can look longingly of someone we aspire to look like or be like, but we are only seeing the surface and making the assumption that it came easily. That it's not fair. That there was no struggle involved. That they see themselves as we on the outside do.
So it's okay to pull the “what if's” and “why me's” when thinking about your own struggles, but in the same breath, make sure you blurt out your “hooray me's” and realize that no one has had it easy.