I’ve written quite a bit over the years about how a healthy lifestyle is a way for me to be able to live life how I want it: without physical limitations. I explain it more in this post from 2012, which is probably still my favorite post ever: This is about life.
With my mom’s birthday that just passed and the cast on my foot, I’ve been thinking about all the things I want to do. It’s probably time to revisit my 101 in 1001 list because my priorities have changed, I’ve done some of them already, and there are some I don’t care to do anymore. Plus, it seems my 1001 days ran out back in February. Man how time flies.
We get stuck in this cycle of “I’m too busy” and “OMG, I’m stressed out” but really, we have the ability to change things and prioritize. I frequently fall into the “I’m too busy/stressed” category and it is almost like an excuse for me not to put myself out there and have these experiences. I used to think that I was afraid to do things because of my weight – the physical problem of not fitting or not enduring. Lately though, I see my mind is what’s holding me back. Insecurities and self-doubt that make these thoughts vanish.
As I sit here on my recliner for the 4th week in a row cursing this pink cast, I realize how that self doubt was doing a better job at holding me back than my weight ever did.
Here are some things that have popped in my mind:
- I want to travel around Europe
- I want to do more Zumba – it’s just plain fun and I always leave with a stupid grin on my face
- I want to be a MissFit – these are awesome ladies at my gym that are competing in Powerlifting competitions
- I want to have more coffee with friends
- I want to mix more prints (in my clothes)
- I want to visit more friends around the country, or have them come visit me
- I want to go to a Richard Simmons Slimmons class
- I want to try hiking
- I want to wear pants. (Ok, so this one might be strictly related to my cast)
- I want to jet ski in the ocean again
- I want to take more road trips
And not only do I want to DO all of these things, I want to enjoy the journey it takes to get there.
I know these all sound very “first world problems” and they are. Well, perhaps not problems, but opportunities. We have all of these amazing things we can choose to do with our lives, and I have found myself sitting on the sidelines filled with doubt. I don’t want these items I wish for “one day” to turn into regret.