While doing the 10 mile training session over the weekend, there was a point I almost shut down and wanted to sit on the ground, throw a tantrum and refuse to get up.
It only happened for a fleeting moment, but it happened. Towards mile 8 or so, Amber said something that was pushing me – something about jogging or adding mileage or something, I can’t even remember… and my mind reacted in this tantrum-like way. I had this reaction in my mind that screamed “hell no, I won’t go!”
It really stuck with me, because I distinctly could see myself in my mind stopping right there in the middle of The Legacy Trail, plopping on the concrete sitting Indian-style and throwing a hissy fit like a child. Of course, unlike a child, Amber couldn’t pick me up and carry me away kicking and screaming. She’s strong, but not that strong 🙂
I guess my point to this post is that we all have our breaking points. At the end of the day, we want to be able to say that we did everything we set out to do. For that day, I was pushing to what I had set out to do. The complete mental block that got thrown up in this fleeting moment was a reminder that we are the only ones who can push ourselves. Trainers, friends and family can’t WILL you to do something that you don’t want to do… or CAN’T do. I’m not a fan of the word “can’t,” but there are some instances when physically, you just don’t think you can. And that’s totally fine.
We are in charge of our own paths and create our own results. Resist the urge to throw a tantrum when someone suggests you do more than you know you’re capable of, and take ownership that you’re doing all you can. That’s all anyone can ask for.