I just took another few minutes to re-read the comments I got from the post where I questioned what I would think if the scale never moved from this number. Everyone was so insightful, and that is why I am incredibly thankful for this place where I can just lay everything out in the open and have someone give a damn. Powerful.
A combination of comments made me realize what I’ve been struggling with: I want to accept myself now, but still work towards continuing the weight loss. If I feel like I’m working hard to change my weight, then how is that being accepting of myself?
Oftentimes, we tend to be our harshest critics. I tend to be very black and white about myself. Did I do the best? It’s yes or no… not “you did well enough.” Did I lose weight this week? Yes or no… not “nope, but you still kick ass.”
To get what I want out of life, I must learn to both accept and challenge myself. I want to reiterate to those who might have been afraid of me quitting this journey – it has never crossed my mind.
I could aim for a 200, 225 or 250 pound loss goal. Each healthy decision I make with this body, which is strong just as it is, will help me get there. It might take more months or years than I would like, but hopefully a few of you will continue to hang out with me as I continue this adventure!
Onward and downward!