One of the downsides to being a weight loss blogger is that when things don't go very well at a weigh in, you feel like you've let people down. Of course, I know this isn't the case, but still – if I'm going to share the good with the journey, I need to be honest about the not-so-good.
As I've written (and vlogged) about, I abstained from the scale for 1 month. I honestly thought I was doing well. I was exercising a lot and thought my eating was good. But today, I stepped on the scale to reveal a measly 2 pound loss for the entire month. My mind was thinking I would have at least 8. That's how good I felt.
I was in such shock that I got off, and back on the scale to see the same number to the tenth of a pound. It wasn't a mistake. This is what I've done to myself in 1 month.
It took me longer than normal to get ready for work because I was honestly upset. I couldn't point to any binges of awful food or bouts of laziness. Poor Trainer Rob had a barrage of emails from me today as I've come to grips with the fact that I obviously didn't do as well as I thought I did. Not even close.
In the end, it has to come down to my food. I thought I ate well, but I wasn't measuring portions. I've always been bad at measuring portions. I'm also not the best at being able to tell myself when I'm full. So, I'm identifying that as the culprit, as much as I don't want to admit it. I didn't eat anything wrong, I just ate too much of the right stuff.
I went out at lunch and bought a food scale. I will start measuring everything and recording it, at least until I can get to a point where I know what I'm really putting into my body. I'll go back to weekly weigh ins so I can track my fluctuations in my weight.
On the positive side, I just measured myself, and since my last measurements on 8/1/10 I've lost 2.5 inches in my hips, 1.25 inches in my thigh, and 1.25 inches under the bust. Total losses are now updated over on my Progress page.
Anyway, I don't want anyone feeling sorry for me or any “Poor Emmie's-” I can do that well enough on my own. The best part of this journey is that you can make changes and try again. And again. And again. This won't derail me. It will only make me stronger. I took 2 minutes off my 5K time, tried spinning, started a thankful blog, and felt pretty this month. I'll take those victories, and work hard to make sure that scale victories will be seen soon.
Onward and downward.