When I was in kindergarten, I was a teachers pet. My mom said it was because I had such a high reading proficiency that the teacher took special interest in me. I was the only kindergartner chosen to read the pledge of allegiance over the PA.
I’m not sure if it’s because I was chubby or a teachers pet, but one day during recess, I was standing near a tree. A boy decided to pull back one of the branches when I wasn’t paying attention and it snapped back and hit me in the eye. He laughed at me. I cried and ran to the teacher. I still have that scar today.
Is this when it started? The feelings of inadequacy, being un-cool, feeling unattractive? I’m sure others have had incidents of teasing and ridicule when you were younger, right?
Today, I just felt gross. I’m not saying I actually AM gross, I just FELT gross. My body was kind of sore from the gym yesterday, I overslept and my hyper pup was driving me crazy. I felt like a slug, and the last thing I wanted to do was go to the gym. I stayed in my pajamas for a while, and loafed around, read some, cleaned out the laundry room. Basically, I just had a lazy day. I felt as though if I went outside, some jerkwad with a tree limb would slap me in the eye again. You know, just one of those days!
Around 3pm, I decided I had to get out of the house. To defend me from the hypothetical jerkwad with the tree limb, I brought my pup, who likes to jump on people. We set off on a walk.
I know, what’s the big deal, right? Walking my dog? As I made my way through the neighborhood and to the park that backs up to it, I realized how long it’s been since I’ve just taken her around the park in the neighborhood. Hubs usually takes her daily out of habit, because at my former unfit self, I would be too lazy or physically unable to make it around the 2.18 mile path.
Today, I walked her and enjoyed the sunshine and cooler weather. We even jogged 4 spurts throughout our 44 minute journey. Me, jogging through the neighborhood park? Who am I?!?
So if you’re in a funk, and letting old baggage keep you down, combat it by doing something you don’t think you want to do. You’ll enjoy it, I promise 🙂
