I went out tonight to support two friends who got some great creative space together. Fat Emmie would have stayed at home. But today, I felt good and went anyway. I didn't know who else would be there, but I ended up seeing people I knew, and met some new people, which is great. I'm so glad I put myself out there. What a stark, stark contrast to the deep hole I was in just a couple of weeks ago. Night and day difference. If I could identify the exact reason why I feel better, I would do it all the time. Because tonight? I didn't feel like I had to hide.
At the party, they had cookies, sandwiches, cupcakes, etc. They also had beer and wine and soda. It was really funny to me that a couple people actually said something about wanting something but not getting it because I was there. Maybe they were just saying that, and that's totally fine, but I wanted to put this out there because it happens at work ALL THE TIME, while at restaurants, and even at home.
Just a PSA for all of those around me: Don't apologize for eating in front of me.
Really, I PROMISE! I know I'm really public about my weight loss efforts. It can be a double edged sword. When I go out, I wonder if anyone will notice the loss, or if they have seen my progress pictures in a bra (yikes – I try not to think about this), or if they will judge me if I decide to eat a cupcake (I didn't). In the end, I just do what I do and you do what you do. We can co-exist in shiny, happy harmony.
So feel free to have your cake (or if we're at work, it's usually pizza) and eat it too. I TOTALLY appreciate the sensitivity to the situation, but I'm really not concerned with what you do. There's nothing offensive about it 🙂
