Wow. Thank you guys so much for your support when I had my little breakdown about my 8.4 mile training walk/jog for the half marathon. I read each response as they came in, read them again yesterday and just read again. I got teary-eyed each time.
I've been through a wide range of emotions since Saturday when I wrote that post. I went to Louisville to see Lady Gaga with a friend. Thankfully, I was able to walk as needed, and stand during the concert. Yes, it hurt, but all-in-all, it was fine. I feel like such a baby even talking about hurting because my friend has a tumor in her hip socket that she has to get removed. I mean, really- my self-imposed over-working and her tumor she has no control over. Talk about me sounding self-centered.
When I woke up Sunday, I was really worried about foot pain, and having to go back to the podiatrist. Guess what? No foot pain. I didn't hurt myself. My friend and I walked to have a wonderful brunch before I came home to watch Kentucky win the SEC Championship. (Go Cats!)
I'm just a little frazzled mentally. It's almost like every long training walk/jog I go on, I'm reminded of how much weight my body is still carrying. The distances are so long that all my brain does is process negative thoughts for 2+ hours while I go through it, especially when I'm left to my own devices. I think the repetition of the loop didn't help either. After going in the same loop 3 times in a row, all you can think about is how you're just going in circles… literally π It was also a much more hilly route than I have ever taken.
Anyway, with the temporary mental roadblock I have right now, I avoided the scale today. No weigh in. I just want to get past this half marathon and then hit it hard back on my gym routine with Trainer Rob. He mentioned how I should enjoy my workouts. While the day of the race will be fun, the training hasn't been super enjoyable for me because my body feels weak instead of strong with the aches and pains.
I know this is just a temporary mental roadblock, but that doesn't mean it's any easier to overcome. I really appreciate the comments and support as they remind me that I'm stronger than I think and that it's not an easy task to push myself like this. I need to stand up and be proud. But my hip flexors hurt.
xoxo
PS: If you haven't already, please consider making a donation of any size to my half-marathon fundraising efforts. If I go through all of this training, I MUST hit my $2,500 goal towards Parkinson's research for the Kentucky Neuroscience Institute. Thank you.
