Based on emails I got over the weekend, I think I worried some people with my last post. I definitely didn't mean to do that – I was just trying to write out what was in my head at the time. Identifying feelings and working my way through them is crucial to me figuring out how to have a healthy body, mind, and spirit. I'm an oversharing blogger, and my transparency sometimes appears on the blog. Perhaps I need to control that, but I think what people like (and what I certainly like about reading other blogs) is honesty. I've tried for too long to hide what I felt like, so the time for embracing it is now!
Want more transparency? Here it goes!
When the past couple of Monday's have come around, I've been a little insecure. My mind says: “You're a weight loss blogger, you must show you lost weight this week.” My body doesn't show the loss. Then it goes to “no one is going to read your blog anymore if you don't lose weight.”
Snap to today. Monday. No weight loss to report.
I know my body better than anyone else. I know the work that I have been putting in with workouts and with Paleo eating. I also know that I'm fighting the insomnia demon and have had issues with controlling my stress (as you read this weekend). Some of it is valid stress and some of it is self imposed. The whole “OMG I have to do what everyone expects of me all the time and I can't take a break or breathe for two seconds sheesh” syndrome. Technical term of course.
Thankfully today I was calm. I got a lot of work done and things checked off my to-do list. I efficiently used my time and my brain was firing on all cylinders. So just a reminder for all who suffer from these same perfectionist, ridiculous tendencies:
- Be yourself
- Treat yourself well
- Learn to say no
- Be thankful